i tend to think that i should leave everything behind. forget about working hard, studying hard.

perhaps i should spend more time picking nice clothes, getting my hair done, putting on parfum & make-up... let me just be free from all those head-aching essays, meetings, reports etc.. i'm just gonna sit still and wait till someone take me as his bride.

it's not a bad idea to get married at the age of 20, have kids at 22. might not be a perfect mother. but isn't it nice to have your kids growing up together with you? would love to be a young mother, to be able to play hard with the kids when i still have energy.

too much independence & confidence kill me. you see me strong from outside. helmet and armor is just the protection shield of the fragile me.

sometimes i'm horribly ambitious. sometimes i'm just bloody coward.